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Tonight I got on the computer to write a post about our Labor Day and how much I love everyone for commenting and stuff. But I was dumb on got on Facebook first and saw this lame video made by some punk 14 year old kids and it made me cry. 

Then of course I found it necessary to read all the comments which led to going to Jada's Facebook and catching up on how much everyone else misses her too. From that point on it was just a downward spiral and I had no hope of writing anything happy about this weekend. Sometimes doing fun things makes me long for her even more, because everything was so much more fun when she was there. I feel so lonely here without her, so empty when I remember that she's not here. I have no doubts that I'll see her again, but it sucks that I have to go the rest of this life without her. The intense, overwhelming pain isn't constant--it's faded with time into a dull ache. Sort of like banging your head against a wall; the pain is still there, it's just felt a little less. But some days it's overwhelming. And unfair. And sad. And stuff. 


Stupid internet. Be back tomorrow.

13 comments:

  1. Sending much needed <> your way. I look forward to reading your next blog whenever you're ready to write it. <3

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  2. Hey, that was supposed to say hugs. Hmmmm, I guess that's why there is a preview button that I obviously didn't use! ;)

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  3. Bridian, it does suck and I am so sorry.
    Much love.

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  4. My sweet friend. I love you. I love you sad, happy, or otherwise. I'm sorry today sucked. I hope tomorrow will be better....but either way I'm here. Love you!

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  5. Very stupid internet. I love you and miss you. I miss Jada, too. :-(
    Love, Joy

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  6. No words. Just empathy. Love always.

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  7. That video makes me cry too! We love you Brid!

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  8. every time that first song comes on my iPod i think of jada and this video.

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  9. I really miss Jada and wish I could of talked to her one more time. But I know that through the Atonement of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ I WILL be able to see her again. I'm hoping to see you guys later. Thanks,
    Braeden

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  10. Oh, Brid...things like that will sneak up on you like that for a while. Just let it come and go. It is part of healing. Remember to focus on the happy stuff, and that you are loved more than you know.

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  11. I saw that video and it tore me apart. Don't ask me why, it just did. I love you Bridian, and so do a lot of people, don't forget that!

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